okay this is it :) goodbye for good!

i quit!!

hello. today lisa and i watched mona lisa smile.

and i liked it alot because it reminded me of my rg and rj life. for some really good reasons. i remember talkign to carol, my obs instructor in sec3, about life and decisions and she asked me to watch it and i remember her for certain reasons (hahaha lingting and rachael would know)

She's smiling. Is she happy? 
The important thing is not to tell anyone. 
She looks happy. So, what does it matter? 
Don't wash your dirty laundry in public.

actually a bit of a dystopia because things seldom get so extreme. but anyway, i feel like the air of elitism still persists but perhaps things have come a full circle. but anyway, i thought it was a good movie. (maggie gyllanhaal looks like kirsten dunst it was so confusing at first)

then i did many sats things. my my my. they are really boring.

chalet and birthday party end of week. choices choices!

i am going to go lj. i must learn from sien! stop means stop.

bla but i'm feeling random and staying home because i have sats and my 2 closest friends aren't too free at the moment >: ( sigh. so this is one of my outlets. hehe.

anyway, i was thinking this afternoon till my head hurt a little. about friendships and what they're made of. but i'm pretty tired now so byebye.

today, mark and i had the funniest conversation in school with yi ran. she wants to name her OG (with aaron mind you) "totallye". loll. and then we tried to guess wan joo's chinese name and it was just messed up. haha. mark guessed "thousand pigs". hehehe.

and i got to know a few 27ths better and it feels so weird when they're asking us about uni and h3 econs. too old too fast!

and then theres jieliang. who i sorta have a love hate relationship with, make that friend enemy relationship. when i reached the council room he was sleeping and after that when he woke up he proceeded to inform me of it by shouting into my ear. he blames it on his hakka background (?!) and then we had a kok conversation about people and it was so funny. then he wrote on my sats paper "julia eat shit". then after that we talked about rosyth and og and stuff like that. (nazi's j1 OG is having an outing tomorrow! wow.....) that's why, in chronological order, enemy, friend, enemy, friend relationship.

then mark and i crapped around after the j1s finishd their orientation dry run. their war game is called anaconda. oooo. then the lit people finished their papers also then they happy happy.

zhang rui called me watermelon head in my childhood photo. pffft.

anyway i read this book called The Simple Truth About Love and theres this part

The journey to true love is not as daunting as it seems
you dont have to lose yourself to find someone else. on the contrary, different points of view are every bit as important as the things you have in common.
Two lives. One love.
Your own personality flourishesd in a relationship, which brings out your best at home and at work.
Falling in love means you still get to do everything that made you truly happy,
but now you also have the joy of sharing those things with someone else. Plus, you get a whole bunch of bonus benefits as well.
There are quiet moments where boundaries dissolve into a delicious, all encompassing oneness, and there's the peace of mind that comes from knowing that someone is there for you whenever for whatever.
Therea re great conversations about everything and nothing.
you can discuss your dreams and desires and know it is safe to share things you could never say to anyone else.
when you are in love, there is snuggling, explosions of passion, and spooning, which, as scientific resaerch shows, makes your dreams twice as nice.
when you are in love, it means there is always someone who will jump aroudn with celebratory squeals when you are a winner, or give warmth and support when you are not.
Love gives us the strength to test the boundaries of our weaknesses, nkowing that when we get in over our heads, a rescue mission is already on the way.

awww. i just had to type it out.

but you know what's the funniest thing, i think a best friend fits most of it, except maybe the snuggling, and passion and spooning line. haha.

okay i'm going to watch a movie with lisa. we rented 3 on saturday and they're all due tomorrow! so fast! movie marathon tonight...

i finished a 1000 piece puzzle in 2 days! :):):):):):):)

and thanks to the amazing puzzle fixing skills i learnt when doing the puzzle with zhang rui last year, i have figured out a way to hold the puzzle up without glue!

use water! :) but only if your puzzle if of good quality. it was funny how we learnt of this trick because we were at the yacht club and it started raining then all the pieces stuck. that's why the puzzle pieces are wet if you look closely

oh. and my table is cleared! FINALLY or what. my mum was wiping it with a cloth and it turned BLACK. like BLACK.

 from last year

something i learnt these past few days. i can't never make it by myself.

lingting rocks.

and you know, i miss studying lit. i miss the beauty of analysing texts and realisng what lies beneath the surface. or for that matter, characters and their speech. i like lit very much still.

i need a good long holiday to somewhere like australia or new zealand. where i can see more sheep and farms than people. i would like that for the moment. someone please take me.

love is pretty overrated. it's nice, but it isn't that great. or let me just say i dont really know the love everyone talks about in songs. maybe they're bluffing all us kids. but if it's really true then i think the people who experience it should be thankful for every moment of it.

it's raining.

theres something inside i can't get out.

and i'm too lazy to archive. help.

i am very, very, very sentimental.

and fickle too.

ultimately it doesn't matter what is said, it's how we feel.

Some things in this world
Man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't need
Until they leave you

ALRIGHT. nowi should start studying sats.

supposed to meet mark, the neighbour who apologises for the funniest things.

Julia says: crap it's raining

Mark says: sorry!

He who listens when they cry

i remember the times when i couldn't go to church without a dress and stockings. hahaha.

hehehe. so much time to not do anything!

this is really living a day at a time. today. i will... go buy a puzzle and go prom shopping :) happiness!

today, julia is doing just one thing. biology multiple choice questions.

during exams i've been getting these weird ideas which would be really nice to blog about but then again i think i should find an lj or the other place to pour it out or everyone would think i'm a weirdo. which i dont deny that i sometimes am. but anyway.

julia has recently attacked the bio tys, which btw, has never been opened until the day before her a levels end. it is spotless, so pure and clean, very unlike chemistry with stuff everywhere. i should sell it soon because my sister isn't even taking bio in secondary school. what great advice i have given her!

anyway, she is at november 1996, started late late last night. and she's gonna finish from 1993-2004 in one day. that's 24 papers :) *grins crazily*

last night i also touched the track for the first time in months. i think the last time i seriously ran was when i was training for the HH relay, which is, a really long time ago. all those failed attempts with mark to run when we ended up sitting down and talking for an hour until it was 1 too late 2 raining 3 getting too emo. hehehe. mark is the best neighbour ever ever ever. all those cab fares where the fare would be $5+ and i'd pay 5 and he'd pay 5 and he'd thrust the change in my hand. and umbrella walks to my flat when it was raining or drizzling are pricelessss :)

darrell is another brilliant guy, who i have very many interesting connections to. coughcough. haha. he's the one who told me what OECD stands for right before the econs exam, which of course came in helpful. and all those days of studying at his home with mark and then we'd get distracted by blogs and eating bakkwa because of mark and chinese new year goodies (!!) and the way he tried to teach me gp and i tried to teach him maths. haha! i think it's one of those things i'd miss but also be glad they'd never come back.

anyway, yes. it's amazing how i can sidetrack (no pun intended). my point was that i ran yesterday! i ran 2.4 before it started raining so that's not my fault. and i really gotta start doing it more often because the concept of deadweight loss is haunting  me right now.

(zhenghong! i ran! i ran!)

lingting is nice :D i remember how my p4 teacher says we shouldn't use the word nice because it's too broad a term, but seriously, i think she's the greatest package of a person i've ever met in my whole life :):):) i hope she is okay for her h3 chem.

okay. i shall go and devour the rest of the tys.

today, i watched the first M18 movie in my life! isn't that a milestone?

and today is also the first day in my life i watched 2 movies in one day! :)

i also ate a jap food buffet and the mushrooms were heavenly and the chawanmushi was da bomb and the sashimi just makes you melt

andddddddd i am very happy :D (i have been playing minesweeper until now) :D

i can't wait for 8 days to be over :)

then i can do something more meaningful with my life! :)